Ok.
So I'm about to turn 31 here shortly and I've been looking back on my life. There are a few times during the year that I review my life, bearings, boundaries and goals and assess what it means to be me: New Years; school semester changes and of course . . . my birthday.
Living in Utah doesn't help the fact that I am starting to feel old. The feeling of "ancient-ness" is in part attributed to the fact that people around me, friends and non-friends, appear to have a "significant other" that helps push them along and fuel the fire of progression. And here I am ... on the verge of becoming a "menace-to-society" and am currently not dating anyone. Please don't think of this as a complaint/fussy post. I know where the problem is and whose shoulders the blame should lie. This is just a reckoning that is needed. Also ... I've found out that the more I admit openly to myself where the problems lie that I can move forward to further my progression.
So where does this leave me? Well . . . I've been asked by many a friends kid (and if you count all the friends kids that I have become friends with I'm an uncle at least 40 times over), "When are you getting married?" And the answer to that question is . . . <shrug>? But I have made a conscious effort to try more in the future. At least more than I have in the past.
I love my house. It's messy and small and a little bit of a shambles but it is my place and it makes me feel comfortable. Too comfortable at times. But I have vowed, and now I make it public, to get out of my house more and try to make a name for myself in the "dating" scene.
Here are the problems I have with this scenario:
- I don't know anyone. My singles ward is pretty youthful. I would have a small problem if my 18 year old daughter was dating a 31 year old man. And since I'm not in school or other "Young Adult" activities I don't meet as many people as I could.
- I keep crazy hours. Since I work as a consultant and such my lifestyle is pretty much demanded by the workload that I have. This means that I control what time I do things and what time I don't do things. My only problems become the nights I teach guitar lessons. Those nights I don't get home until pretty late at night (around 10:00). This means that I kinda have control on where and when I can do things, but kinda not. So a person has to be flexible with "The Enoch."
- I'm kinda an odd-ball. Yeah I know this comes as no shock to people who know me, but I have odd tastes in things. I'm an eclectic in possibly the worse sense of the word. I have 100's of Books, Movies, CD's, Toys, Gadgets and Gizmo's all over my house. It means I like a lot of things, but I'm also very set in my ways.
- I'm set in my ways. This is my BIG hurdle that I'm overcoming. I'm working at it everyday and I have vowed to be adventurous and try things that I normally wouldn't do. I'm trying to grow here ...
- Etc. If you know me you know what that means. I onced asked a friend to sum me up in a couple words ... She couldn't do it.
So I'm on a new adventure. One that will hopefully prove fruitful and a growing experience. And if things go well maybe I can answer the next little kid, "Next week! Why you wanna come?"
I'll keep you posted