Open Letter #3: When time is running out

The "Enoch" — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 08:06:18 GMT

You are the new day …
   One more day when time is running out for everyone
   Like a breath I knew would come, I reach for a new day
   Hope is my philosophy … just needs days in which to be
   Love of life is hope for me, born on a new day
You are the new day!
You are the New Day – The New Day – The King’s Singers

Dearest friend,

There is a great quote from Ralph Waldo Emerson in his essay Friendship that says:

Dear Friend: -
If I was sure of thee, sure of they capacity, sure to match my mood with thine, I should never think again of trifles, in relation to thy comings and goings. I am not very wise: my moods are quite attainable: and I respect thy genius: it is to me as yet unfathomed; yet dare I not presume in thee a perfect intelligence of me, and so thou are to me a delicious torment. Thine ever or never.

It’s the last line, “Thine ever or never”, that I find the most troublesome. Ever or Never. I’m firm in my belief this life does not remain consistent in relationships. They are either growing or receding. I have never experienced a relationship that remains constant over time. Sometimes rebuilding the connection is not difficult, but other times it is extremely gossamer. So I do not want to waste our precious time together fiddling around with trivialities. I want to understand and know the whole of you.

Time is the greatest illusion. The idea there will always be more. The thought it is fleeting and we will never experience it again. The truth is these moments that make up our experiences together are flashes of rare emotion. And if you or I leave, those moments of rare emotion will recede our connection or strengthen our desire. The choice, I’m quite afraid, is made upon the strength of our relation.

If we were sure of each other’s intentions, sure of our potential to love, sure our feelings were unified, distance would hold no boundaries for us, and we would pine for the return. But if we lack slightly in any of those areas, then surely moving beyond the capacity of our current actions would be simple. Our tenuous connection would be severed and new bonds would be created with different people. It has happened to you and has happened to me.

So time is running out on us. It always has been ever since we met. And if we want to continue then we need to focus on the connection we’ve made. The hope I have is that we create our tie that is strong to outlast the trials of tomorrow … whatever those may be. So within the last moments we have, either this week or for years to come, let me fight for our unity. Let me fight for our understanding. Let me fight for our together. That way, when we part, I know that our sinews will be unified in the strength of Love, Hope and each other. Until we meet again.

The potential of a New Day is in your smile. And that, My dear friend, is what a delicious torment you are to me.

Thine ever …

Open Letter #2: What I’d Be Without You

The "Enoch" — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 07:55:04 GMT

“I may not always love you, but long as there are stars above you
you’ll never need to doubt it, I’ll make you so sure about it
God only knows what I’d be without you …
If you should ever leave me, well life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me, so what good would living do me?
God only knows what I’d be without you … “
God only knows – Pet Sounds – The Beach Boys

Dear “her”,

My thoughts have driven me to think about the life I could be leading and also the life that I lead. Effortlessly I drift along my own path tossing up fractured ideas about perfection. However … no, that’s the wrong phrase … With reluctance, I know that I am not the ideal, perfect man. My flaws are numerous and my weaknesses are many, but … I have no idea where I would be without your guiding light shining.

As much as I have foibles, I know that you are not perfect as well; we are equally flawed. But using your visage/countenance as a beacon I look at myself and hope for the best. I draw a path towards greatness and achievement, not because you demand it, but because you deserve it. I do this freely and without request. I do this to find a perfection in myself that is there and hopefully, one day, to be able to complete that perfection and deserve the ideal I have placed on you.

I ask only one thing in return … your understanding that I am not placing you on a pedestal to gloat or boast. I am treasuring the creature that is within, the underlying wonderment and amazement that is your potential. Please do not use this as an excuse to think you are all deserving of my affections and admirations. I am not to be used in a disposable manner. I want to have the vision and the goal to work towards. Guaranteed, if you and I ever found each other the hope that I could be placed on that same pedestal is there.

For now … I’m happy to astound from afar. It helps me become a stronger, better man that will be in demand. Possibly that triumphant, glorious angel could be you. But if not … then for a time we both had memories and moments that are happy and pleasant. In the process we hopefully grew as people too.

God truly only knows what I would be like without you,

Enoch

Enoch's Love Life : potential

Open Letter #3: When time is running out

Open Letter #2: What I’d Be Without You